right now, i am visitng the site of NASA.. at first i was just really curious about planet jupiter, sabi kasi ni ate kay, makikita daw siya sa june 6, which is today.. i wanted to know what time.. most of the sites i visited were unhelpful, there was time on it, but not the time in the Philippines.. boo!
then, i thought na baka sa NASA meron..
i guess seeing jupiter was not a biggie for them, since i didnt see anything about jupiter.. but, i did surf on the other links in the NASA site, then i got jumpy..
i saw one link : "work for NASA"
shiyet.. it was like too easy.. just at the press of that link, i can see how i could get in, requirements, qualifications.. it's likes im right there already..
Want to Work at NASA?
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NASA is more than astronauts. We are scientists, engineers, computer programmers, personnel specialists, accountants, writers, maintenance workers and many, many other kinds of people. At the NASAJobs Web site, you can review job listings, post a resume and even apply for a NASA job online.
At NASAJobs students can find opportunities for internships, cooperative programs and summer employment.
For all the diversity of NASA's workforce, the question, "How can I become an astronaut?" is very common. The answer depends on where you are now and where you want to go.
If you haven't finished high school yet, former astronaut Dr. Sally K. Ride has these suggestions for you:
"The most important steps that I followed were studying math and science in school. I was always interested in physics and astronomy and chemistry, and I continued to study those subjects through high school and college on into graduate school. That's what prepared me for being an astronaut; it actually gave me the qualifications to be selected to be an astronaut. I think the advice that I would give to any kids who want to be astronauts is to make sure that they realize that NASA is looking for people with a whole variety of backgrounds: they are looking for medical doctors, microbiologists, geologists, physicists, electrical engineers. So find something that you really like and then pursue it as far as you can and NASA is apt to be interested in that profession."
If you've graduated from college or are in the military, and you're ready to apply, here's how |
** so i havent graduated from college.. im half way, but with the wrong course.. im not in military either.. and what's really annoying, is that CHEMISTRY is important, i hated chem in highschool, and i still hate chem right now! kahit na tapos na kami dun ngayong college.. i wanna take-up astrophysics if i do get in the US.. maybe while having a job in nursing/as a nurse, maybe i can study at the same time.. or maybe work full time for about 5-8 years, then study again.. better late than never right? and anyway, when i saw the people qualified as an astronaut or people working in NASA, they werent as young as i thought.. they were in their late 30's and 40's.. i mean, if im gonna finish nursing in 2-3 more years, i'd be 21.. then start working as a nurse, id be 22 or more.. by my late 20's, i can still take up astrophysics (can i?).. or at least astronomy.. or maybe aeronautics/engineering, kasi kung hindi man ako pasok as an astronaut in NASA, i can manage rockets an stuffs like that.. or will they accept a nurse in a NASA office.. lam mo, kait ano okay eh! basta sa NASA..
source: http://www1.nasa.gov/about/career/index.html
naipon sa word pad.. kapag offline ako.. hehe.. :)
i am really very clumsy.. hahaha.. i totally admit it.. but not all the time.. most of the time they are unexpected.. but also with the mix of my foolishness.. well, aslo i am not exactly coordinated.. that's why i dont really sit at the middle or at the back of the driver in a jeepney, because i usually end up stepping on people's feet.. i dont really mean it, i'm just like that, uncoordinated.. one time, i was walking at the merville gate, towards the trike terminal, i fell.. it was because of a pretty obvious crack on the road, that i didnt see because i wasnt wearing my glasses (palusot pa noh?), and i wasnt feeling well, like my legs were like jelly all of the sudden.. so there! another, which is quite recent, is that i was climbing the stairs of the lrt/mrt station in edsa.. i was counting my coins for the ticket WHILE climbing the stair WHILE texting.. i fell! what's worse was that i wasnt wearing my glasess either, INSTEAD, sunglasses, because it was really hot & bright at that time.. sheeesh! during first sem, we were having an experiment, using the crucible and cover.. the instructions said the cover should be half open or something like that.. HELLO!? the cover slipped.. i mean, sheesh, it's not like it's supposed to be somewhat rough enough to hold up the cover for it to be half-open.. the cover slipped, and the experiment hasn't started yet.. another is when i met cindy (antaran) at the gate of madocs.. she was already in the jeepney, and i was talking with her while the jeepney was leaving, i was trying to reach her, when i tripped, i didnt know there was a pot of plant right there at my feet.. hahaha.. what's nice about all of these embarassing moments is that i dont freak.. i just stand up again as if nothing has happened, or i just laugh along and blush at the same time.. i learned somehting though, im not buying shoes that have heels that are 2-inch high.. siguro wala nalang heels or 1-inch nalang.. hehehe..
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20 things that really frustrates me..
1. when you wake me up in the middle of my sleep.. i couldnt say middle of the night because i might be nocturnal at that moment..
2. when you wake me up by calling me up.. our landline is right beside my bed.. try calling in the afternoon or at night instead.. please..
3. when i do something wrong, you get really mad at me like the world will end or it cost somebody's life.. but when you do something wrong, it's alright?!
4. when you DEMAND (not saying it nicely)me to do something, when you can do it anyway.. you're just being lazy.. (and you think me not doing it is me being lazy..)
5. METAPHOR >>> the house is burning, and you ask me if im gonna put out the fire or not or when will i put the fire out.. refer to number 4!!! you're being lazy again..
6. when you tell me to clean my room or you cleaning my room.. my gosh! how'd you feel me cleaning your room?! and i'd find out hidden stuffs.. misplace your everyday rituals to places you'd never find.. have you heard of "privacy"?! dont i get my own in my room?! in my own house?! saan nalang?!?!?!
7. when you dont listen to me.. i'd like to help you out, i'd pour my heart out to give you advice that will really help you.. but letting me recite a long list of advice and you're just listening but your brain is else where.. here's advice: get lost! you dont need an advice, you need to pay attention! maybe that's why you're having problems!
8. your being abusive.. im nice, i really am, just dont abuse it.. you'll notice it, i hardly put a fake smile.. unless you're insensitive, i dont know who you are anymore!
9. when im depending on you, and you fail me.. gosh, you could have said it earlier that you cant do it, wag mo nakong paasahin! masmaiinis ako noh!
10. kung reklamador ka, wag kang umasa sakin, dahil ginagawa ko ang lahat, hindi ko kailangan ang reklamo mo, ibigay mo nalang sa iba na hindi maiinis..
11. tardiness.. you coming late, it's like nothing happened, making me wait for a long time, was nothing to you.. kapag nainis pako, kasalanan ko pang on time ako.. AND.. kapag ako late, sheeeesh, oo na, late ako bumangon.. oo na, ang tagal ko magbihis.. oo na, pinagantay kita.. tama na, andito nako noh!
12. debts.. wag kang umasa, hindi ako makakalimutin, kahit ilang taon na nakalipas, may utang ka pa rin sakin, pasalamat ka, at walang interest!
13. wag kang makulit! refer to number 7! napagsabihan ka na ng isang beses, kailangan pa bang mapagsabihan ka ng 100 times?!
14. friendly ako noh, pangit yun ere dahil suplada ka, hindi ka nagoopen up.. kung di nako nagsasalita, nassense ko ng ayaw mo sakin or wala nakong makwento.. hindi pwede ako palagi..
15. pag gutom ako, at hindi na reasonable yun pagka-bad mood ko sa isang bagay.. actually reasonable siya eh, lalo na kung naexperience mo na rin yan.. "gutom lang yan"
16. wag kang namimihasa! i dont say "no" to you cause i dont wanna disappoint you.. refer to number 8..
17. ayaw ko sa kj.. period..
18. sinisigawan moko.. and yet, andito lang ako sa harap mo.. noh ka ba?! skandalosa ka lang talaga or nangaasar?!
19. kapag pinapakelam mo ko.. may sarili kang buhay, yun guluhin mo, wag akin..
20. kapag nagpaprinig ka.. duh!
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i am watching unfabulous right now, it's episode is about adie getting her braces, she actually hates it!!! meanwhile, i cant wait to get mine AGAIN.. yea, i used to have braces in high school, but my unfrequent visits caused me to bring it down on my own.. hahaha! and there, my teeth went back to it's weird positions.. and besides, i smile better with braces.. though it's painful at times.. hey, no pain no gain..
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! jake bahari is actually asking if adie is hanging around with anyone... haaaaay!!! i wish im like adie or at least somewhat close to her condition...hahaha.. and jake bahari as... to0o0o0ot.. weh!
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i was watching one of my fave shows, my wife and kids.. and it reminded me of something i saw in discovery channel before, mga 2 weeks ago.. the episode in my wife and kids was when jay (the wife) was back from a trip and gotten really fat.. her role in the show was a chubby wife, not a fat one.. mejo walang connection sa naalalala ko eh.. tapos naalala ko na yun napanood ko sa discovery, it's about marcos finding out the yamashita's treasure.. his ""corruption" once again, but there wasnt enough proof.. there's this guy kasi in baguio na nakahanap ng golden buddha, when it was published in newspapers, niraid ng "people" ni marcos yun house nun naka-discover and stole it.. a few days later, the marcos' people returned it, only finding out it wasnt gold anymore, it was already in bronze, and the secret compartment didnt exist anymore.. so anong connection nito sa my wife and kids?! one of the speakers in that show in discovery channel actually said that the philippines is a starving country.. the philippines aint rich.. but we arent that poor.. so yes, sometimes the poor do starve, but it doesnt have to mean that that statement should generalize the whole country.. though they think we are poor, we are able to somehow put food in our guts, though soup noodles are not vitamins enriched and full of preservatives that aint good for our bodies.. it;s just annoying to hear that, we are a starving country.. isnt that a bit harsh? okay, so yes, our poor fellow country men do starve pero that wasnt right, we admit, well, atleast i do admit that out country isnt the best around, economically terrible, tourism is still good.. but saying that on a documentary that will be seen a whole lot isnt exactly nice.. nor right.. it bothers me a lot.. thinking that, we do everything we can to get that guts of our filled.. we even go overseas to leave our loved ones just to be able to put plateful of food on our tables.. so, we starve, but whatever! we do whatever we can to disprove that.. annoying lang..
it felt sad knowing my "assuming attitude" was up again..  at least i didnt go anything beyond what could have made me more miserable besides know the truth.. zafra, joyce.. i love you guys so much..  without you guys, i could have gone crazy.. zafra, thanks because even though we were both deceived by the truth, you were there all-through out..  joyce, thanks because you stopped me from experiencing further pain.. i know it really sucks and i know you feel bad for me.. but dont.. i aint feeling bad anymore.. you even made everything crystal clear..  thanks!
the truth may hurt me, but it has set me free.. i'd rather live in the awful truth than live a lie..
thanks guys..
**p.s. Joyce! dont you dare used me to divert her current stitch! no way im agreeing to risk what we have to make things better for that person.. or at least you think so.. mwAh! 
Bakit Part 2 ~> Mayonnaise
lumuha ka ng nagiisa, nakadungaw sa buwan.
Lumilipad ang isip mo,nakasabit sa ulap.
Ngunit bakit, pinilit, kung ayaw ko'ng masaktan?
Sinabe ko sa kanya, na 'di parin nililikha ang katulad ko na parang timang, at 'di mo parin maintindihan.
Malayo ang pagtitig mo, dala ng hangin.
Akala ko ay pwede pa na umasa sa iyo.
Ngunit bakit, pinilit, kung ayaw ko'ng masaktan?
Sinabe ko sa kanya, na 'di parin nililikha ang katulad ko na parang timang, at 'di mo parin maintindihan.
O bakit ba, pag wala ka na, ako'y kulang
Sinabe ko sa kanya, na 'di parin nililikha ang katulad ko na parang timang, at 'di mo parin maintindihan.
source: http://www.lyricsandsongs.com/song/205097.html
Another Used To Be ~> Joe
I brought you here so that i can express the things i've been thinkin bout give me your ear.
cuz i don't normally do this so bare with me through this. there are so many things that i
want to say. but let me start by saying this saying i thank you. darling just because..
i used to love someone that i didn't like we used to want to break up every other night. i
used to think realationships were a lot of stress. i used to think that pain was a part of
happiness. now all that's changed since you've come my way, but i don't want us to become
another used to be.
I hope what i'm saying don't discourage you in any kind of way cuz i do believe that you have
the potential to be everything i need. i hope that you can really understand that i would hate
to be with someone new, and tell them what i'm telling you.
i used to love someone that i didn't like we used to want to break up every other night. i
used to think realationships were a lot of stress. i used to think that pain was a part of
happiness. now all that's changed since you've come my way, but i don't want us to become
another used to be.
cuz it would only be another waist of time and all the moment to be raised i would bout my
mind. another memory a part of history. I cant forget cuz it keeps haunting me. Now that your
here is evidently clear, but i don't ever have to have this worry again again. ooohhhooooooo.
i used to love someone that i didn't like. we used to want to break up every other night. i
used to think realationships were a lot of stress.i used to think pain was a part of
happiness. now all that's changed since you've come my way, but i don't want us to become
another used to be.
source: http://display.lyrics.astraweb.com:2000/display.cgi?joe..and_then..another_used_to_be
How To Deal ~> Frankie J.
Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I don't I'll probably regret it
How do I cope
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebdoy else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how to I live...how do I deal without you
It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebdoy else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how to I live...how do I deal without you
source: http://display.lyrics.astraweb.com:2000/display.cgi?frankie_j..the_one..how_to_deal
**yun mga naka-highlight ng pink yun talagang tinatamaan ako..
isnt it really sickening that i posted my woes about my family and a certain someone i cant have?! i dunno what's happening to me or what's going on.. astronomical maybe.. since May is my month.. and im a taurus, ruling the planet Venus.. goddess of love and beauty.. something must be going on.. and it's really weird.. not bad, just weird.. but whatever it is.. astronomical or not.. everything is said is true.. and it really affects me a lot.. kahit na manhid ako.. i can still feel them.. pano pa kaya kayo? kung sainyo napunta mga problema ko, tapos di kayo manhid.. buhay pa kaya kayo?! weh!
i just wanna lighten things up since my last two posts.. they are both really REALLY depressing eh!!! **winkz..
i dunno.. i guess you can safely say that I AM in love.. it's just that i dunno if i should go on.. well, unto the next big step, because im not even sure kung ganon din feelings niya for me or nag-aassume lang ako.. pero tama si luv guru zafra! hahaha.. we psychology each other's love life.. and fortunately for her, she is going somewhere with hers.. at least i think so.. while mine, we've (me&zaf) been looking at every angle possible if there is actually chemistry between me and this person.. it's so nice to think and assume, but finally knowing in the end that it isnt me, shiyet.. back to zero nanaman ako.. heart broken nanaman ako, nothing to motivate me to do things better.. nothing to make me appreciate the silliest things around.. and another reason for me to curse mushy songs and sing out loud with rock&broken hearted songs (addicted by simple plan rings a bell..) and finally, out of the blue, cry..
so many signs that makes me assume, isnt there a sign that will make me actually believe?!
and im telling you, i have been a victim of my "assuming attitude" a gazillion times! and end up just like what i said above.. and this person, god, i still have feelings for that someone even though it's been years! well, not that really long, pero it sounds long.. sabi nga ni zafra hanggang pag-tanda ko na toh.. wag naman..
sometimes i just really wanna shout that na like ko siya.. then jump off a cliff after, not knowing what will happen next.. the most painful thing about me umaamin, is that i'll be rejected , and that has happened nga, a gazillion times.. it's getting really annoying/disturbing, not depressing.. i sometimes think, if there is something wrong with me?! i do well in school, i have an okay social life.. i think im pretty good enough to have a relationship with someone.. oh boy, if you only knew.. im pretty loyal and possessive and i can get really sweet and all that.. maybe that's whats wrong with me.. hahaha.. peolple these days wants a partner with the hotest body.. im sorry, i dont have that.. all i can give is my heart..
it is really painful getting rejected.. well, wait.. baka ano isipin niyo.. di ako yun nanccourt ha! yun inaamin ko palang.. and the people na inaaminan ko, they ALWAYS tell me they dont feel the same.. man! can't it be just a simple smile and thanks.. i dont really expect something to happen.. cause i already know the answer to that.. hey, im living in reality too you know.. living in reality is bad enough, but actually saying it to my face that "it" cant be.. or much worse you dont feel the same and "let's just stay friends & pretend nothing happened" is unbearable!!! because pretending is a playing-safe word.. something actually happened that you and i cant pretend that didnt happen.. whenever i will see you, i'll remember that thing that we pretend/ed that didnt happen.. and for sure you will too..
i often express how i really feel in shout-outs, stats in ym, caption of pictures.. because those are my territories, nobody can ever judge me there.. who knows if i am in love or what or simply crazy.. wait, maybe you can judge me at those, pero what can you do?! nothing.. that's all you can do, judge them.. but this is getting far away from what im feeling/saying..
uhmm.. to you, yes you, the one im crazy about.. can it be possible that im gonna tell you i love you, nah that's too deep.. i really like you.. like LIKE you.. would that work? and not react badly towards it like "i dont feel the same" or "i only like you as a friend".. a simple thanks and smile is okay with me than getting rejected.. dont worry, i wont get ilang naman eh.. i'd still treat you the way i treated you before i confessed and act the same silly and foolish ol' me.. and you know, in time i'll get tired of feeling that emotion for you since you're not reciprocating it, and one day, i might not find you that interesting anymore.. just dont hurt me, okay?! if you think i like LIKE you, i love myself also noh.. at least if you dont feel the same, somebody else would still love me.. me.. anyway, will you do that for me?
if you do read this.. i dunno.. i probably have jumped off a cliff.. haha kiddin.. tell me if you did.. it's pretty obvious naman eh.. and tell me what's on you're mind.. unless it's a "im flattered, but i dont feel the same" or "let's just stay friends" or "i like someone else eh".. if you dont want a relationship with me, that's okay.. im not really expecting anything like that, cause your signs could actually be pointing at a different person.. i just wanna let you know that i do feel something.. you've done so much already by actually reading this.. big thanks!
i started this, the song bakit part 2 by mayonnaise was playing in my ipod, number 36 out of 401 songs.. now, how deep is your love by bee gees is playing, 145 out of 401 songs.. i thought about this post really hard.. took so much time and net card and guts.. while waiting for you to be online in ym.. but you didnt.. maybe tomorrow..
my palms are actually sweaty.. i dunno what you'll say after you're done reading this and it's already tearing me apart.. it's like i already know the answer.. but i hope im wrong, i mean i hope if it's not a positive answer, at least somewhat neutral..
just please, dont break my heart.. please not again..
**binasa ko siya ulit habang nakikinig sa how to deal by frankie j.. man, kahit wala maxadong connection, i felt really sad.. hehehe...
1030pm (after talking to my mom on the phone) 
sometimes, i just wanna scream..  like today, i feel so haggard and stressed.. like it's just 6pm, and i feel so tired, though i woke up around 8am this morning, good enough to stay up a little later in the night.. i dont have much physical activities.. i think it's because my mind works 24/7.. i think a lot.. and the way im thinking gives me a lot of stress and makes me feel haggard without the physical activities.. they say it's good to think about the future, right? maybe im thinking too much about my future and my family's happiness if i have a good future.. though i would like to cry about my so-called-future, it's like i can cry all i want but there's nothing i can do..  so sometimes i just control my tears, and feel my throat trying to break a scream and my eyes feeling pain of controlling the tears.. i think a lot about my future because my family depends on me, actually my mom is the only person that depends on me.. my brothers are just like worried and wants me to be successful.. there just one thing wrong.. they all want me to be a successful nurse.. i never wanted to become a nurse, never did it enter my mind in highschool.. i always wanted to be an architect.. since it's already impossible for me to be an astronaut or at least take up astrophysics.. i even want to work for NASA or own my observatory.. i believe i can apply my talents to it.. and if i set my priorities straight on that course/career that i want, i'd do well, as others would say.. i have no talent for nursing.. im afraid of needles.. im afraid of a simple injection, even the "ant-bite" kind of injection on the finger.. im most deadly-afraid of dextrose.. i dunno how i survived this when i had my operation last november 2005.. if im afraid of having those done to me, im most afraid of doing it to others, or patients.. in the US pa naman, just a simple mistake, they'd sue you already.. how can you have a successful future naman?! i hate the course im taking, i hate every single thing about it (injections, dextrose, etc.), and what i hate about it the most, is that with that course, i can make life easier for my family.. im so sick of hearing my mom on the phone every time che calls from abroad that they are doing every possible thing to get me there otherwise, i should just do better in nursing.. the answer is pretty obvious.. life for her there and my brother doesnt get any easier everyday.. it seems i really have to be a nurse.. even though it pains me a lot that i cant fulfill my own dreams of becoming an architect, it's something i have to do.. i cant tell my mom or my brothers of how i feel.. they all think how i feel is stupid or katangahan or none-sense.. they all think my passion for architecture is a waste of time and money and it wont bring me anywhere.. do they think me being a nurse will bring me somewhere at all?! with all the angst i have for nursing, i dont think i'll even finish college in time.. i see myself, in college, taking nursing, failing a couple of times because most probably that subject is hard or i just hate it and i have no passion for it, or simply I DON'T CARE!!! but in between all these, im trying hard, doing my best to be something i dont want that everyone wants me to be.. a nurse.. even my college pukes me out of the nursing department.. i wasnt exactly in nursing during my 1st year.. i was in psychology!!! there! (but the subjects taken were all the same, so there was not much of a problem in shifting) because besides my hatred over nursing, there are factors why they wont take me in nursing though my test results says so that i'll do pretty well in nursing.. i was doing fine with my condition, i had to go numerous operations to be "normal" so that i can go into nursing.. i was fine the way i was.. happy & contented the way i was.. (though after 2 operations went well, its been done, it's alright na rin kasi it made my speech better).. i have to change the way i was just to get me in nursing.. a course i deeply hate.. but its so nice to think, living in the US with my family, with a lot of moolah, our own house, probably a car or two or more, good salary when converted into Peso would just make you faint, beautiful life in the US.. that's the american dream! when i look at it that way, it looks worth it.. but.. im not even sure.. the things im afraid of like injections and dextrose can be a hindrance to my success.. it's so hard to see or hear people depend or expect so much of me.. though im shouting here that im not perfect.. i cant promise them cause things may happen, like nurses are not in demand anymore or i fail numerous times resulting, me graduating late.. i've been also pushing my mom to take me in the US ASAP.. i dont care what job i have there, as long it wasn't connected to medicine or nursing.. i'd do anything.. take any job, i wouldnt mind.. then at the same time go to college.. a working student, better late than never right? what im trying to say to all of this.. IM TRYING MY BEST TO DO WHAT OTHERS WANT, I JUST HOPE THEY DONT DEPEND OR EXPECT TOO MUCH CAUSE I DONT WANT TO LET THEM DOWN BECAUSE I AINT PERFECT TO FULFILL WHAT THEY WANT OR EXPECT ME TO DO OR TO BE.. IT PRESSURES ME A LOT TO MAKE THEM HAPPY OR PLEASE THEM.. BUT AT LEAST I WANT THEM TO APPRECIATE THAT IM DOING MY BEST.. BECAUSE I ALSO WANT A GOOD FUTURE NOT ONLY FOR ME BUT ALSO FOR MY WHOLE FAMILY..EVEN THOUGH IT'S TEARING ME APART.. because the last thing i'd ever do is make my family sad and/or let the down.. even if its a whole lot of sacrifices for me.. i want them to be happy.. i always think of them before me.. i think of others before me.. isnt it obvious already?
1104pm (after crying while typing this because im serious about this post, as in every word of it)
this is about a friend of mine.. pretty sure she'll read this..
hey, though you show us a smiling face, i can see your pain, i can feel them in every love quote you send to us.. it may show nothing and that you only wanna share a quote to us, but i feel that you feel the same way the quote shows..
okay, so you didnt have a nice break up with HER, it was not even close to nice.. it was terrible, her new bf telling you to giver her up and her telling you nothing about it.. who wouldnt see this horrifying and heart-breaking.. all of us did.. and so did you..
yes we shouldnt easily give up a fight, especially about love, but this is the end of the line for the both of you.. quit sending love quotes already that obviously you can relate with, cause it's already making you look pathetic.. pitiful also..
stop pretending your over! because obviously you aint over her.. we understand it aint easy, but it wont help by pretending.. be yourself, say what you feel.. we'd understand.. we are your friends..
for once, listen to us, we are your friends, and we too know what's good for you, it's time you hear what we say and stop pursuing what's going on in your head.. you do what you want all the time without consulting us and see to it your ALWAYS right, but in the end, your ideas fail you anyway and will make you realize you should have listened to us..
go on with life, you might find the perfect one for you, who will not hurt of leave you.. dont go doing something stupid like pretending to smoke a lot.. and just fall to whoever person you please.. again, you're being pathetic.. it's an obvious cover up for what you feel about her.. go on with your NORMAL way of life, not going into bad habbits..
well, hope this struck you.. or you might just ignore a piece of advice again and do what you want though it kills you..
it's been raining for 4 days.. actually di naman maxadong maulan eh.. sobrang lakas lang ng wind.. umuulan, pero not as much.. kung umuulan, malakas/malaki lang un patak pero nawawala, tapos babalik.. pero its a good thing, all the days & weeks of heat.. grabe, diko alam bakit buhay pako! hahaha..
ang taas nga ng bill namin! last month it was 10thou.. nagulat kaming lahat kasi every month, asa 5thou lang.. tapos biglang 10thou.. huwaw..  taas.. it got worse when we got the next bill.. naging 12thou naman.. mainit eh!!!
well, dapat asa splash island kami kahapon, pero dahil nga sa bagyo, hindi natuloy.. sino ba naman gusto mag-swimming dahil summer pero umuulan.. it was good na na-cancel, bigla din akong nagkaroon nun friday night.. so it was scheduled next saturday..
mukhang matagal-tagal nakong di nagshshopping ah.. my kuya and i went to sm bicutan kanina, kasi walang kuryente, we bought our usual groceries and cooked ulam na din.. but before that, we bought mama's jogging pants in Human.. while my bro's was waiting on the credit card, i browsed and saw a cute pair of shorts!!! it was good for swimming kasi it's tela is perfect for water, and it was garterized.. kasi naman, yun mga shorts na kung san-san lang, walang garter.. and i loved to buy it.. but thinking that the jogging pants was already too much.. i did not mention it to my kuya nalang.. then, he went to the comfort room, right beside surplus.. so i told him i'll be just looking around.. naghahanap ako ng ganon shorts na hindi pricey, pero puro walang garter.. so i looked at the jackets nalang.. OMG.. i saw a cute green jacket.. i love green recently.. ewan ko ba.. tapos it's tela is soft, perfect for a cold weather.. tapos dumating kuya ko, asking me if i wanted something.. i told him about the shorts in Human, he encouraged it.. but i said next time nalang.. sa saturday pa naman yun swimming..
right now, it's 552am.. im awake too early.. well, im usually awake at 6-7am, cause i've been sleeping the normal hours again.. yun tipong 10pm tulog na.. haha.. kasi i left the faucet in my bathroom open, eh naka-lock room ko so di masara ni kuya yun faucet, he had to knock on the door, ring the phone *which was the most annoying btw!* and open my windows.. actually sadya, kasi nainis ako sakanilang 2 ng kuya ko last night.. panu ba naman, Matt always slams the ref's door, eh may mga eggs don akong nilagay na di na kasya sa kung san nilalagay talaga yun egg, 3 nabasag.. yun eldest kuya ko parang nagpaparinig bakit kasi dun nilalagay, hello!!! im there!!! couldnt he just yell it at my face?! my other kuya on the other hand was more of dedma.. because his son does slam the ref's door a lot.. gusto kong isigaw na "aba, kayo magayos ng grocery sa susunod, para pag may nabasag na itlog, ako naman magpaparinig sainyo, tignan natin anong mararamdaman niyo!" and i bet if they did fix the groceries *which they dont!* and break some eggs, it will be like nothing to them, like nothing happened.. pero pag ako, todo blame eh! hello, they were just eggs, at least nobody got hurt..
bakit parang wala pa yun mailed grades ko.. kasi last sem, it was like just 2 1/2-3 weeks after the last day nun nakuha ko grades ko.. bakit ngayon, 2 mos na ata, wala pa?! im just anxious to see it kasi minsan iba yun grades sa class card don sa minemail na grades.. minsan masmataas or masmababa.. either way, i still wanna see it.. but there wasnt anything to see..
ever since i turned 18, parang i got lazier.. i didnt go out jogging anymore.. a factor of this was because i slept at normal hours.. i usually dont sleep in the whole AM.. and sleep all through-out the PM.. tapos, i dont cook food.. i still cook, pero not as much, only when someone is hinting out that he's hungry.. kasi madalas andito naman si ate carol, she can cook naman eh.. napipilitan lang ako minsan magluto kasi hindi nila minamarinate yun meat bago ifry.. kaya walang lasa.. kadire.. if im gonna eat, im not only gonna satisfy my hunger, but also my tastebuds! i've been playing ps2 again, i even shoo my brother from his room kung saan andon yun ps2.. odiba.. pinalayas ko sarili kong kapatid sa kwarto niya.. which i found good, instead of doing mostly nothing and eating at every chance i get, i use that time to play ps2 nalang.. and i hate it when somebody disturbs me.. kahit amoy ng food.. hehe.. im trying to go back to my old self eh.. nag-gain ako *for sure* ngayon summer.. i miss my old self.. kaya ayokong hindi pumapasok eh.. hindi nacocontrol.. actually, nun nagcollege ako, there was no control either, because it wasnt like hs na may recess and lunch time.. college had different scheds and a lot of free time.. minsan nga kahit nagcclass, kumakain kami eh.. so feeling ko tumaba din ako nun college.. kaya super bawi..
pero when summer started, i actually wanted to gain weight for the reason na ooperahan ako, and i wont be able to eat something solid for a long time which will make me loose the extra weight i gained.. parang bear na maghhibernate..
oo, nawala yun kuryente kahapon, pag-gising ko ng mga 8am kahapon, kala ko nasunog na yun electric fan kasi di na nakasindi! parang ako, "shit, nasira na.." pero it was still chilly kasi umuulan, then i tried putting on the lights, it was then i realized na walang kuryente.. parang ako, "shit! empty bat ipod ko at cel ko!" it was owkei naman kasi na walang electric fan kasi malamig na.. hindi ko lang alam panu ieenjoy.. so sinindi ko yun laptop, kasi may battery naman toh, pero 2 hours lang ang life.. chinarge ko yun ipod ko *hopeless cellphone ko* at naginternet nako.. naalala ko yun time na andito cousin ko with his family for christmas, nawalan din ng kuryente, eh tanghali na, at di naman umuulan, so mainit nun nagising ako.. tawa ng tawa yun cousin ko and his wife kasi narinig pala nila yun pinag"sisisigaw" ko sa meralco.. it went something like this: "bakit walang kuryente dito sa merville!?" "ano?! eh kelan magkakaroon?!" "anu ba yan, ang taas-taas niyo sumingil palagi ng kuryente, tapos lagi namang nawawala!!!" "ang dami niyong pineperwisyo! un mga ad niyo, ang ganda panoorin, pero puro sablay naman!" and the person i was talking to couldnt help but reply nicely kahit lahat yan ay pasigaw.. kasi naka-record eh..
614am..
 | "tawad" | May 4, '06 12:53 AM
for everyone |
Today's Forecast:
You'll accomplish an amazing feat today without realizing how -- accept the praise.
i copy-pasted this from friendster..and i tried to figure out where or how.. then i did.. i went to the hospital kanina for another follow up on my operation.. this thing just goes on and on, isnt it? the operation itself is taking forever.. anyway, going back, Dr. Mendoza kept praising me, haha, kasi though i have a cleft palate defect, it wasnt very obvious because i have pretty cheeks.. hahaha! it was AMAZING because not all cleft palate defected people have nice cheeks, nice enough not to give attention to the defect, if i wasnt overbite, then there was no problem.. anyway, this is just an intro.. it's far from my subject..
on our way home from the hospital, me and my kuya was on stop because we are still on red light, then a man was selling pranelas, 8 for P100. i ignored it for the fact na i dont have a car, and what will i do with 8 pranelas?! and i dont have any moolah on me and i have no interest with them.. but my kuya, gave that guy a look, so the guy ran to his side of the car, then he asked, "9 nalang.." the guy didnt hesitate, either because he havent gotten any sale, or because it was green light and he couldn't say no, because it was 9 or nothing, or because 10 can be sold for a hundred, and made it 8 instead for the profit, unless he makes them himself.. i had mixed emotions after my kuya purchased them.. because if i was a guy and have a car and if im into pranelas, i'd think 8 for P100 is pretty fine, this vendor wasnt bill gates for crying out loud, he needs the profit. mixed because i also thought, that some "patong" are unfair. we strive for a thing/clothing that we want for a cheap price, you go to different stalls, finding out the other has a lower price than the other/s. what's irritating here is the weird face the tinderas give you when you say "bakit masmura sakabila" it's like their face, you can read them: "edi don ka sakabila" wherein in divisoria they'd actually say that aloud to you..
wala lang.. 
p.s. birthday ko na bukas!!!
i feel so flushed out of everything..
dreams are a killer, i dont know.. but my recent dream was sad.. it was like back to highschool, we just started to be senior students, then, all of a sudden, 2 of my friends left.. chicken and rosali.. first it was chicken, we were like in a kind of a vehicle, bringing her to the airport, just her and me, mel, joyce, jordo.. just us.. chicken kept crying and crying.. but what was weird that her departure was always prolonged.. like experiencing so much pain before death rather than just dying all at once or immediately.. we kept crying for chicken.. until she was gone, and her being gone was just.. even worse.. though it was a prolonged departure, it's like she wasnt able to say goodbye to us properly.. she just vanished.. i dunno why im having these kind of dreams!!!
next it was rosali.. well, it wasnt as dramatic as chicken's since rosali will be at the same country, and will be flying home at sem breaks.. but her way of leaving was the other way of chicken's.. she left just like that, and i felt so terrible! two people leaving at one day..
though i was sooo miserable before i slept last night, i felt even worse when i woke up.. especially waking up at 530 am after 2 days of no sleep.. and i slept the night before, around 11pm.. ang sakit physically and emotionally..
well, it's supposed to be my 18th pretty soon.. no parties.. too bad, we have to spend it on my 3rd operation.. bummer.. and since so much delays has been done, i might not be able to go to school for the 1st sem.. much more time wasted..
my 17th was no different from my 18th.. my 17th must be pretty worse compared to my 18th.. because on my 17th, i was alone at home, my plans of treating my kulasa friends was still on the next day, and my childhood friends on the next week.. and 2 weeks before that, my mom left for the US, God knows when she'll be back, and 2 more weeks before that, my kuya left for the US also.. ano bang meron don na wala dito?! dont answer.. im just making some drama..
well, for my 18th, im gonna be celebrating it four times.. a dinner with my family. well, just me, my kuya who has the same birthday as me, my other kuya and his wife and kid.. another is with my madox friends, im gonna treat them to prov for a videoke session since they are all die hard rockstars and divas, another is treating my childhood friends in star city, and another is with dorm E, this one is pretty malabo.. so it could just be three celebrations..
i guess it's better this way than putting everyone together in one party, that i wouldnt be able to interact with (that what usually happens in debut parties right? the debutante is too busy being the celebrant and the planned activites, and not able to entertain everybody)
but if it was me alone to decide, and not being forced by everyone to go out hinting me to treat them, i just want the dinner with my family, of course with my mom and kuya who are both in the states.. or me having a plane ticket to the US going to my mom and kuya, but i dont wanna leave my kuya who has the same birthday as me, we have never been apart, ever.. aww..
i am just so0o blind sometimes... i tend to search for something more.. and yet, 5 years ago before i met her, i lived a happy life.. criticisms-free.. i ran my own life, my own decisions, my own perspective.. i know that people judge me "patalikod".. hey, every person is a backstabber, they just dont know they are doing it..
and then i met her, geez, i was eaten alive by her words.. and recently she has been telling the truth.. i was kinda attached to her cause i thought she could help me fit in in the new environment i was in.. an environment called high school.. even worse, in an all-girls exclusive school.. it was never a choice for me to enter that school.. it was more of by force.. my mom wanted me to skip 7th grade and become a girly-girl.. "maarte" cause i wasnt exactly 100% kikay girl.. pero i wasnt boyish or tibo when i was in grade school in CSA, but then again, id usually invite guys into fist fights.. hahaha.. yea, i was a toughie girl.. so, going back to this girl, it's like i hang on to her every word.. she wasnt popular in the batch.. neither was she the nerdy/ot.. she would be classified as normal.. but all this time, i was living a lie, one day, after 5 years of friendship, i felt as if i dont know her anymore.. though we had a lot of fights during highschool, this must be the end of the line.. she criticized me (again, but this was the worst) and told things i didnt know that people said behind my back.. i mean, if she really was my friend, she'd be comforting me, not agrreeing with other people and then criticize me as well.. and jokes.. why do you say one anyway? is it because you actually mean it, you just add "uy joke lang" at the end just not to make a person feel bad when in the first place that was the intention? everyone has feelings, so might just be a little bit sensitive.. fragile.. like me.. so when you joke me, even if its really a joke, i get affected somehow.. im a "thinking" person.. i think a lot.. even if the situation is just not worth "thinking about", i still think about it before i sleep at night.. at the same time im a "feeling"  person, since im a sensitive person.. i cant help it, im a taurean, taureans are affectionate and passionate people, so to speak, emotional.. even silly jokes create a big impact on me.. whether it may be really mean or simply something to laugh about.. and her jokes wasnt funny.. not really hurt, but still hurt in a tiny way, i was affected.. the joke was like blackmale or something.. i felt so used.. 5 year friendship in place of own pleasure.. so mean.. and yet, me expressing my pain was just something like her free time that she would laugh about.. well, that's just about it.. if you're reading this, i want you to know.. i've had with you.. if you really think im so0o sensitive, it just shows that you're insensitive, you're pride is so0o high, nobody can reach it.. cant you just admit you've hurt me and apologize.. but anyway.. you have your finals to problematize right now.. since, we, your friends, are only needed at your free time.. we never said that you should make more time with us than your studies.. we just want you to understand us.. is that to0 much to ask?! but im saying it again, its to0 late for us.. i've had it with you.. i deleted you in my life.. 5 years of agony finally over.. sweet freedom.. never tasted so good..
the connection with my 1st paragraph? i may have deleted you, but it aint a loss for me.. i can finally see what i couldnt see before.. the other persons who love me for who i am inside out, and would never criticize me.. comfort me.. care for me.. would never lie or judge me.. my family..
and whoever said "friends come and go, but your family is forever" is absolutely right... i remember that night when i said that to you, you got afraid of losing your friends.. of the distance college will make.. but you look satisfied cramming under your "oh-so-to-die-for-course-because-its-your-school's-forte".. friends are not what you need right now.. well not really.. what you need is to relax.. you're to0 aggressive.. you're mixing your friends with school.. you think it's our fault that you're failing.. you're failing on your own..
geminis and taureans is an ugly mix..
i know its astrology, i cant be trusted 100%
its my belief, have your own! stop criticizing me!
i have said a lot of times that im want be unique and dont want to have same stuffs like him or her.. i want to stand out having my own stuffs, so i really love it when my mom sends a balikbayan box, containg clothes, bags, etc that wont be seen here, having the priviledge of being unique..
its like this, i texted my doctor the other day when can i see him again for my 3rd and final operation and how long is the recovery(mostly curious if it will interfere with my studies).. although it's a bit annoying, cause he replies after an hour or so, i got really nervous because this was my final operation, it was my MAJOR operation.. he replied (2-3 hours later) asking me when i can visit the hospital again.. and telling me that im gonna go through maxillary advancement and that it will take a month for me to recover.. im no doctor, and he texted me that way like i understood german and he spoke spanish.. i ignored it for a while and replied to his text that maybe i could visit the hospital around 2nd week of april, i have a lot of catching up with my friends before i get into my last operation.. and i had to get my classcards, my yearbook, and almost all my group of friends are asking me out.. dorm E wanting to go to star city (always have been planning one but never seem to go on).. inflatable friends(though they seem to ask a lot if we are going out, we never quite sum up to all of us.. it's either one is missing or even more.. or to0 lazy to go since one of us isnt going anymore.. pretty much like that)..my bes wants me to go with her family in punta fuego.. and there's my 18th birthday on May 5.. well, it will be another ordinary passing day as i've predicted.. howell.. the dreams of having a parteee are over.. and i even planned a rock-star theme.. *siiiiigh*
so i got on the net, really curious what's a maxillary advancement.. yahoo! wasnt very "yahoo!" on the results.. as it always happens, they gave out sites selling appliances or books about it.. if it wasnt about books or appliances being sold, it was just a part of a very long essay/article that didnt have any connection to the main topic of the article/essay.. so i went to google.. same there.. no need to repeat what i saw, just same as yahoo.. so i tried askjeeves.com, and thank God, actual results.. one of the sites didnt explain what or how maxillary advancement worked.. pictures are worth a thousand words, right? so i let the pictures do the explaining.. and there it was, a guy from 3 weeks old to 18 years with the very same defect as mine.. and he turned out pretty well.. he looked "normal" just like an ordinary healthy born baby..
so what's the connection with my first paragraph?!
it felt good having the same defect with other people.. that i am not alone on this.. and that my defect will be repaired and turn out just right..
btw.. if you're curious about the site im talking about, here it is: htt p://tm.ask.com/r?t=an&s=a&uid=006562E86BF96B434&sid=1D9F831ACD92B6244&o=0&qid=E9B1FB78AEC46AC581A4161634D8EBD7&io=5&sv=0a300517&ask=what+is+maxillary+advancement&uip=ca51b5cb&en=te&eo=1&pt=Books%20-%20Cleft%20Lip%20and%20Palate%20Vol%20I%20and%20II&ac=3&qs=0&pg=4&u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cleftlippalate.org%2Fbooks%2Fclp%2Fclp.htm
just look for the guy under complete unilateral cleft lip and palate
well, uhm right now im listening to britney's "girl in my mirror", a bit senti.. i dont know why im listening to this.. maybe it was like 5 minutes ago that i was listening to black eyed peas' hey mama.. no connection.. hehehe.. i had a telephone conversation with a friend a while ago, she told me something that got me saying "joke lang yun" .. well.. i think it is.. people seem to be fond of joking a lot lately, as if i wasnt.. but what i mean is that, joke as in toy with my feelings.. i joke a lot, but not play with others feelings.. hearing twice this month that boys are "hunting" for me.. geez.. you know, those guys dont even know me.. even if they were true.. i'd just ignore them.. cause they dont even know who i am.. all they see is the outside.. i dont even fall for guys who are like the hotttest male around and belive me when i say that i am not a good companion for boy scouting cause i aint.. i do fall, because i am also human.. but i fall for guys that i know from the inside not what they look like.. do you think that "cute-ness" right now will remain that "cute" when you're seventy.. dont think so.. id rather go for the guy who's positive attribute/s wont fade, not even in time.. that's why im having a hard time meeting that guy.. i know (and have fallen for) several guys with the way i wanted, but, they never reciprocated how i felt.. even this guy now, i really like him, though he has fallen for a girl who only uses him to buy her stuffs.. and he thinks its a positive reaction towards him but all the while the girl is playing with my friend's (different from the guy i like.. true..) heart and with others.. see, boys fall for girls who are so0o flirty.. that's why its never wrong to use your mind over your heart.. i was also reading cosmopolitan a while ago, but it was june 2005 ish.. there are signs when a guy is only after your body and doesnt really love you.. geez.. unless you're insensitve or just plain dumb when he compliments you, you can tell he's just after something else than the real thing.. then also, i really like this guy, although "much has been said" before.. and we cant have anything more than friendship.. well, owkei, so im cool with that.. so the risk was not exactly worth taking, but i tried.. no, i didnt gain anything, but i lost a little of the friendship we had.. but that's it, with time it was owkei with me already.. it just sometimes people think im paranoid but i aint.. i really aint.. things like a simple glance oocurs, does that make me paranoid already? past is past right.. well, you know its not hard to remove the feeling all at once.. maybe inch by inch.. but god, i still want him.. you know, im still waiting while im releasing an "inch by inch" feeling for him.. im somewhat holding on while letting go.. sigh.. i always say that one day, i'll meet the right person, the one who is true and brave enough to rescue me from this darkness.. so maybe this guy really aint for me nor the one i said earlier.. unless something did happen.. but i dont really expect to.. if ever something does happen, then it would be really nice.. if nothing happens, at least i didnt expect, i didnt hurt my heart.. that's using my brain over my heart..
school is almost done.. 2 more weeks.. it's like i couldn't believe it.. because it was like a year ago, at this time, i still didn't know where to go to college *yeap, my school choices (and passed them) wasn't my mom's choices, so we had a lot of thinking time..* and here i stand.. *well, im sitting, but you get my point..* almost, technically a sophie.. but there's still my 3rd and last operation to ponder about.. which will take about 3-4 months for me to recover, which means, i wont be able to enjoy my summer.. bummer.. my debut is not exactly a debut. it might be just another ordinary passing day.. *sniffsniff* and i might not be fit enough to go to school at june.. maybe i'll start 2nd year at 2nd sem, november.. i have to make todo habol if i must graduate by 2009.. geez.. all this for a work already waiting for me abroad that wasn't my dream.. yeap, im still talking about my broken dreams of being an astronaut or an architect.. yeap they are my dreams, and that's what all they're gonna be, dreams..
lovelife.. hay magulo.. well, today i saw 2 of my crush-es.. hahaha! im kinda concerned *waha!* about mejas.. *okay, codename para di halata..* he's kinda down at the dumps lately.. and for the other.. just a stroll at C.A.S., and im happy already.. *wushu.. sino toh!? bahala ka!* but.. something else or SOMEBODY ELSE is bothering me.. i dont know.. he just bothers me.. ask my journal.. every weakening moment i expereince with this guy is written there.. basta.. hope this will go away.. kasi naman siya e.. tanga.. hmph.. anyway..
gotta do our english project na nga..para finish na, and nothing to make habol during finals week.. ay wait.. let me post about out activity in philo last friday.. my negative attributes according to my classmates.. most are true and i laughed kasi nga they're true.. ONE, on the other isnt.. but all is good.. resolved.. i'll post the positive ones too..
Negatives: minsan bilis magalit *true*, mahilig makielam *true and i laughed, i just wanna make kulit of my friends, and obviously my friends wrote this..*, offend people unconsciously *yeap..im sorry for that.. SABIHIN NIYO KASI KUNG NAHURT KO NA KAYO E, STOP NAMAN AKO E!*, one-sided minsan *well, according to protagoras, people do tend to follow their own opinion, homo mensura..*, minsan mataray *true and i laughed again..*, maarte, masungit, mataray, moody, siga (all written by 1 person) *all of these are compliments for me so i laughed harder..*, plastic *i really dont know why someone said im like this, i try to show every bit of piece of me kaya everyone thinks im mataray.. cause that's who i really am..pero misunderstanding lang pala.. okay na..*, obsessed to ________ *aba, sino nagsulat nito.. HINDI NA TOH TOTOO..*, sobra magselos *yeap..*, wag guluhin pag bangag *TRUE!!!*
Positives: can lean on *wall ba ko?!*, can count on *number ba ko?!*, huggable, nice, generous *kuripot nga ako e!*, sweet, bait, helpful. responsible, hardworking, good friend, astig *wahaha!*, honest, dependable, understanding, approachable, saya kasama, daming chismax, sarap sabihan ng secrets, supportive, caring, loving, good adviser, nice, jolly *classmates?! walang maisip na ibang words?! joke laaaang.. thanks..*
too many days w/o school..
getting a lil bit wee too lazy.....................
well, here's my perspective of things that has been really REALLY annoying me..
2 days of no school has both good and bad outcomes.. good because i get extra sleep.. i almost hibernated.. again.. as in sleeping late, and waking up around 1pm.. kala mo naman, summer na... hahaha.. tv galore, no questions asked... hehe.. bad sides, i eat too much.. hahaha! can someone please lock up the fridge.. and the pantry.. and the cabinets.. hehehe.. sleeping after eating brunch (brunch because i get to wake up 1pm na.. hehe), i sleep again.. so i have too much sleep in the afternoon, then i dont sleep at night.. i get to sleep around 2-3am already.. im afraid waking up for school is gonna be a challenge again.. haaay..
what the heck is going on with our country?!?! im not pro-GMA.. im not anti-GMA either, but, you know, being the president is not easy, i haven't been a president but i bet it isnt easy, and everyone expects her to be a perfect president.. they expect her to fulfill everything she said in her agenda all at once, but rallying and putting her down will not make it any faster or will not bring our country to the top just like that.. couldnt you just be relieved that she doesnt gamble at casinos like Erap?! so what if she did cheat in the election?! i think it was far more better that she became president than.. uhmm FPJ, who, passed away later on.. your votes must have been just wasted on him anyway... and now what?! people are rallying, even the marines have gone mad.. ive been against the marines (people in fort bonifacio) long before because they always cause traffic here, they are always prioritized, while homeowners of merville, moonwalk, astra are stranded in a small service road.. while they breeze unto the nichols bridge without worry.. i can say is that they are big brats! their silly rallies (that i even think they were paid to do so) are causing no classes at schools all over manila.. isn't that just creating more problem rather than solving it.. it delays school, education, success, etc!!! they should think before they act..
now i know who to blame for the extra flab and the extra eye bags.. and low grades.. rallyists suck!!!
i dont have, exactly, a love life to be proud of.. im not desperate.. its just bothering me.. again.. ugh.. i better stop watching "girls in love" on nickelodeon.. it's just so sickening to see guys falling for brainless girls who have beauty that fades away.. im not saying im a genius.. but im still waiting for that part of my life.. my "teenage love" as my professor in developmental psychology would call it.. and im turning 20 in 2 years.. so maybe 3 because i wont be 18 until may 5.. hehehe.. but i guess, all i have to do is to wait.. besides, id rather wait for my one true love, than a hundred guys, going on and off.. so i just opposed myself.. *sigh*
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i've done something i havent done in months.. just hang with my besti..